幾分鐘前，我在看今年攝的一些照片。相機真是偉大的發明，把瞬間凝結成永恆，我一直是這麼認為的。
說過要回顧2008年前半年的“HDB 太太”生活。今天終於有閒情逸致這麼做。
有些朋友很好奇我是如何度過這6個月的。
不必工作的日子其實過得很快，也特別快樂。每天睡到自然醒，然後看電視、上網、做家務、睡午覺、煮飯，然後繼續看電視，一天就這樣過去了。偶爾逛街瞎拼，跟朋友喝喝茶，又過了一天。有些人或許無法這樣過日子，幸好我能，而且還蠻享受的。懶人就是與眾不同！哈哈！
這半年長假裡，我出了三次國。有朋友以為我發了橫財，所以不工作還能到處飛。哈哈！我也希望事實如此，只可惜我一向沒有橫財運。其實，大家工作了幾年，多少都有一點積蓄，要不要、肯不肯揮霍，就看個人了。我是個瘋子，所以沒想太遠。錢以後可以再賺，但是時間和精力是不會停下腳步的。因為如此自我，加上對理財沒甚麼概念，我才可以毅然辭職，僅靠積蓄過著揮霍的日子！這或許是常人永遠無法理解的。當然，我也會擔心將來，害怕以後老了沒錢，但是現階段，我還是比較渴望放縱自己。哈哈，太不理智了！
就因為不理智，結果，三月中旬，我和老媽去了東京，非常幸運地賞了櫻花。這是我們第一次一起去旅行。老媽很喜歡日本，至今提起三月的日本游仍津津樂道。我很慶幸當時做了這個決定。老實說，如果當時沒去，我不知道甚麼時候會再有帶老媽出國的念頭；如果當時沒去，或許我短期內不會有看見櫻花的機會。若考慮太多，或許就失去了體驗某種生活的機會。
以為從日本回來後我會安定下來，好好找工作，誰知道事實並非如此。我繼續過悠哉閒哉地生活。5月1日那天，我竟然經不起誘惑，訂了飛往台北的機票。這是我第一次發瘋到極點，為了看演唱會一個人飛到國外去，第一次一個人在國外過生日。這確實是很難得的經驗！之前確實對“單獨行動”有些害怕，後來卻覺得這樣的旅行很不錯。原來我是可以一個人生活的！真是個孤僻（大）小孩！
6月初去了面試，後來在曼谷的時候接到入取通知，不久後就上班了。“HDB 太太”生活劃下句點，人生從此不同。
很懷念過去半年的日子！不過，要一輩子這樣是不可能的。擁有過這半年的長假，我想我已經很幸福了，不應該太貪婪。當然，我很幸運，有個支持我發瘋的另一半。
回過頭看，若重新選擇，我想我還是會選擇放長假。雖然過程中有很多焦慮、不安、不確定，以及很多很多讓人吃不消的壓力，但是這樣的空窗期對我來說是必要的，也是必然的。當初所做的種種瘋狂的決定，我想是對的。若那時決定不去日本和台灣，我想就如YQ所預料的，我肯定會遺憾。
接下來的日子，或許很難再出國旅遊了。真令人難過！
未來有太多未知數，我不想想太多，只想把握每一天，不要讓自己將來後悔！：）
如果你也在猶豫是否要踏出那一大步，放棄眼前的工作，好好思考人生，我會支持你！我知道要做這樣的決定需要極其大的勇氣，也需要條件允許，家人的支持，但相信我，沒有人比自己更清楚，保持現狀所帶來的痛苦其實更大。“時候到了”，自己會知道！：）
我相信天無絕人之路，拐個彎風景將會不同！：）
我的哲學之道
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Poor Worker???
Someone told me today......
"If you can't work, be a teacher.
If you can't teach, be a consultant!"
Apparently, someone "high up" said the above statement on several occasions. She felt quite offended as she was once a teacher, and subsequently became a consultant.
Teacher=poor worker? Ha, maybe that someone "up there" should try be a teacher and then share his experience!!!
It's a shame that many people out (up) there still have the wrong perceptions! Teaching experience certainly is working experience and in fact, I think being a teacher allows one to acquire a wide variety of skill sets. Sad to say, many people still do not consider teaching as relevant working experience. :(
Teaching is NO EASY job nor is it a NO BRAINER job! It's tough, I can assure you. We ought to salute the people who are still in the profession!
No job is easy. Be it a teacher or a consultant, they each have their fair share of nonsense. Eveyone who earns a living through decent means deserves our utmost respect!
职业不分贵贱，请别抬高自己，贬低别人的价值！
"If you can't work, be a teacher.
If you can't teach, be a consultant!"
Apparently, someone "high up" said the above statement on several occasions. She felt quite offended as she was once a teacher, and subsequently became a consultant.
Teacher=poor worker? Ha, maybe that someone "up there" should try be a teacher and then share his experience!!!
It's a shame that many people out (up) there still have the wrong perceptions! Teaching experience certainly is working experience and in fact, I think being a teacher allows one to acquire a wide variety of skill sets. Sad to say, many people still do not consider teaching as relevant working experience. :(
Teaching is NO EASY job nor is it a NO BRAINER job! It's tough, I can assure you. We ought to salute the people who are still in the profession!
No job is easy. Be it a teacher or a consultant, they each have their fair share of nonsense. Eveyone who earns a living through decent means deserves our utmost respect!
职业不分贵贱，请别抬高自己，贬低别人的价值！
Sunday, July 20, 2008
A Dark Sunday Morning
We had breakfast at TBP's Toast Box before watching "The Dark Knight" at GWC.
The 2.5-hour long movie was quite depressing. I left the cinema with a heavy heart. Is the movie really that fantastic? I don't have an immediate answer. I guess it's good but as I don't really fancy superhero movies, this is not my cup of tea. Heard too many reviews of the movie, hence finding it a little difficult to be objective. Yes, joker was well played. An Oscar nomination should be expected for the deceased actor. Yes, the movie has much more substance in terms of content. Yes, the entire movie was very dark - the title, the visual effects, the underlying tone and the messages that were put across......
The image of Joker wearing the doctor's robe kept popping into my mind. It was one of the few scenes shot in broad daylight. In a few seconds, the entire hospital was gone. The fumes were very grey, almost black......
I wonder, under what circumstances would a good man turn evil? Sometimes, when one loves too much, attaches too much affection on someone/something, this "obsession" can easily be used by another person to ignite feelings that are in a totally different direction......
Man can be very frightening......
The 2.5-hour long movie was quite depressing. I left the cinema with a heavy heart. Is the movie really that fantastic? I don't have an immediate answer. I guess it's good but as I don't really fancy superhero movies, this is not my cup of tea. Heard too many reviews of the movie, hence finding it a little difficult to be objective. Yes, joker was well played. An Oscar nomination should be expected for the deceased actor. Yes, the movie has much more substance in terms of content. Yes, the entire movie was very dark - the title, the visual effects, the underlying tone and the messages that were put across......
The image of Joker wearing the doctor's robe kept popping into my mind. It was one of the few scenes shot in broad daylight. In a few seconds, the entire hospital was gone. The fumes were very grey, almost black......
I wonder, under what circumstances would a good man turn evil? Sometimes, when one loves too much, attaches too much affection on someone/something, this "obsession" can easily be used by another person to ignite feelings that are in a totally different direction......
Man can be very frightening......
Saturday, July 19, 2008
On a Saturday Morning
I guess my biological clock has changed. For the past 2 weeks, I have been waking up at relatively early hours. Today, it was only 7.20 am when I jumped out of bed.
Decided to go for a jog. I had planned to do so on Thursday night after work but I was not in a good mood then and thus shelved my plan. It has been a while since I last jog in the morning, under broad daylight. I gave up after one round (that's only about 2 - 2.2 km). Conclusion: I prefer to run in the evening. It makes a difference (at least to me) when the sun is shining above my head. Errrrrr, it was quite cloudy when I ran just now. Ok, I admit. It's plain laziness!
This afternoon, I will be meeting up with my "gang". I can't remember when was the last time we had a gathering with full attendance. Ha, hopefully there's no last minute changes. I hope everyone would be able to turn up. What would be the topic of the day? Babies, Red Cliff or our jobs? I really look forward to this afternoon's gathering!
This weekend will be a busy one. While meeting up with friends and indulging in fun and good food, there is a more difficult task that I need to do - nurse my bruised ego and restore my self-esteem. Ha, tough task!
Decided to go for a jog. I had planned to do so on Thursday night after work but I was not in a good mood then and thus shelved my plan. It has been a while since I last jog in the morning, under broad daylight. I gave up after one round (that's only about 2 - 2.2 km). Conclusion: I prefer to run in the evening. It makes a difference (at least to me) when the sun is shining above my head. Errrrrr, it was quite cloudy when I ran just now. Ok, I admit. It's plain laziness!
This afternoon, I will be meeting up with my "gang". I can't remember when was the last time we had a gathering with full attendance. Ha, hopefully there's no last minute changes. I hope everyone would be able to turn up. What would be the topic of the day? Babies, Red Cliff or our jobs? I really look forward to this afternoon's gathering!
This weekend will be a busy one. While meeting up with friends and indulging in fun and good food, there is a more difficult task that I need to do - nurse my bruised ego and restore my self-esteem. Ha, tough task!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
老北京
Since I'm downloading photos from my phone to the computer, I decided to post these photos. Ha, can see that we are always eating!
We had dinner at Lao Beijing the other day. According to the date of the photos, it was 2 July. We ordered the "set meal" and these were the dishes that went into our stomach.
Their 楊枝甘露 was VERY good! :)
We had dinner at Lao Beijing the other day. According to the date of the photos, it was 2 July. We ordered the "set meal" and these were the dishes that went into our stomach.
Their 楊枝甘露 was VERY good! :)
週末－吃喝玩樂篇
上個週六，我們在總統府附近看見飛機飛過。這是國慶預演的開場。
我們到Fish & Co解決晚餐，順便把禮券用完。那裡的顧客群太年輕了，我覺得有點“格格不入”。還有，現場“樂隊”的音樂太大聲，我覺得有點吵。YQ說站在台上的若是五月天，我應該不會有這麼多怨言吧。哈哈哈哈！
我們點了Seafood Platter for 2。好吃，但太油膩了。老人家不能常吃！:)
我喜歡吃他們的葡萄乾炒飯。Yummy!
我們到Fish & Co解決晚餐，順便把禮券用完。那裡的顧客群太年輕了，我覺得有點“格格不入”。還有，現場“樂隊”的音樂太大聲，我覺得有點吵。YQ說站在台上的若是五月天，我應該不會有這麼多怨言吧。哈哈哈哈！
我們點了Seafood Platter for 2。好吃，但太油膩了。老人家不能常吃！:)
我喜歡吃他們的葡萄乾炒飯。Yummy!
週末－吃喝玩樂篇2
週末的時間過得特別快，離星期一只有幾個小時的時間。我開始變成“藍精靈”了。
這三天我又一直不停地吃，肚子快撐爆了。
星期五我們原本想到鼎太豐用餐，但是人實在太多了，我沒耐心等，最後決定到Canele去。也許是老了，我越來越不喜歡吃西餐。有選擇的話，我會選擇吃中餐或日本餐。
我們又肆無忌憚大吃了！
星期六，我們看了《赤壁》，也許因為沒有要求，所以還不至於大失所望。儘管稱不上是好片，但由於我醉翁之意不在“戲”，兩個多小時的時間還不算難挨。哈哈！不過，有些劇情我還是無法接受。林小姐真的是個大花瓶！每個有她的鏡頭我都忍不住“頭髮站起來”。在我看來，這的確是一大敗筆！
看完戲，吃過晚餐，我們繼續瘋狂購物。YQ很開心，因為他終於買了他很想買的Eee PC。據銷售員說，貨早上才到，而他們店裡只進了10台。我們買了之後就只剩下兩台。
今天，我們到“德宝”吃香港點心。現在肚子還很飽，看來可以不必吃晚餐了！哈哈！
希望等一會兒天氣會好一點，可以去跑步，減少我的“罪惡感”！
這三天我又一直不停地吃，肚子快撐爆了。
星期五我們原本想到鼎太豐用餐，但是人實在太多了，我沒耐心等，最後決定到Canele去。也許是老了，我越來越不喜歡吃西餐。有選擇的話，我會選擇吃中餐或日本餐。
我們又肆無忌憚大吃了！
Carbonara
Stewed Chicken
Spaghetti （Stewed-chicken的“配菜”)
Classic Chocolate Cake - 溫溫的，很好吃！
星期六，我們看了《赤壁》，也許因為沒有要求，所以還不至於大失所望。儘管稱不上是好片，但由於我醉翁之意不在“戲”，兩個多小時的時間還不算難挨。哈哈！不過，有些劇情我還是無法接受。林小姐真的是個大花瓶！每個有她的鏡頭我都忍不住“頭髮站起來”。在我看來，這的確是一大敗筆！
看完戲，吃過晚餐，我們繼續瘋狂購物。YQ很開心，因為他終於買了他很想買的Eee PC。據銷售員說，貨早上才到，而他們店裡只進了10台。我們買了之後就只剩下兩台。
（我們的Eee PC暫不能輸入和閱讀中文。唉！）
今天，我們到“德宝”吃香港點心。現在肚子還很飽，看來可以不必吃晚餐了！哈哈！
希望等一會兒天氣會好一點，可以去跑步，減少我的“罪惡感”！
Help!
My memory is failing! I can't remember if I've paid my bills and I can't find my statements. I simply cannot recall where I've placed them.
This is REALLY bad! Help!
This is REALLY bad! Help!
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
自我反省
今天工作非常不順利，接連犯了幾個錯誤。感覺自己是個大笨蛋，我又不是剛畢業，怎麼可以錯得這樣離譜！
有些不安和沮喪，當然還包括自我懷疑。
只能告訴自己以後要加倍小心，要更加敏銳，朝“零錯誤”的目標邁進！
難免還是覺得很受傷，希望一覺醒來情緒會被平撫⋯⋯
對自己說：
“笨蛋，加油！”
有些不安和沮喪，當然還包括自我懷疑。
只能告訴自己以後要加倍小心，要更加敏銳，朝“零錯誤”的目標邁進！
難免還是覺得很受傷，希望一覺醒來情緒會被平撫⋯⋯
對自己說：
“笨蛋，加油！”
Monday, July 7, 2008
Are You Blue?
YR sent me an sms last evening, asking if I was blue.
Yup! Of course I was and I am. After 6 long months, my "hatred" for Mondays is back. I thought I had forgotten that feeling of helplessness and irritation. I was wrong. Some things just don't change.
Although I still suffer from Monday Blues, I must admit that my condition is less serious. I attribute this to the fact that I am still in my "honeymoon" period. When things get full-bloomed, I am quite certain that my condition will deteriorate. Ha. I just hope I'll learn to cope with it as days go by.
As usual, I am the first to go home AGAIN. While I was having dinner at 7.50 pm, my colleague sms-ed to say that she just left office and asked me to pass a message to my boss tomorrow morning. Ok, maybe I should TRY to work a bit later in future. Hahahahaha.
4 more days to weekend. I'll survive, won't I? :)
PS: I have been thinking of "summarizing" my "long vacation" in a blog entry since last week. I must try to do so soon before my memory fails. :p
Yup! Of course I was and I am. After 6 long months, my "hatred" for Mondays is back. I thought I had forgotten that feeling of helplessness and irritation. I was wrong. Some things just don't change.
Although I still suffer from Monday Blues, I must admit that my condition is less serious. I attribute this to the fact that I am still in my "honeymoon" period. When things get full-bloomed, I am quite certain that my condition will deteriorate. Ha. I just hope I'll learn to cope with it as days go by.
As usual, I am the first to go home AGAIN. While I was having dinner at 7.50 pm, my colleague sms-ed to say that she just left office and asked me to pass a message to my boss tomorrow morning. Ok, maybe I should TRY to work a bit later in future. Hahahahaha.
4 more days to weekend. I'll survive, won't I? :)
PS: I have been thinking of "summarizing" my "long vacation" in a blog entry since last week. I must try to do so soon before my memory fails. :p
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Indulgence + Confusion
I just came back from a KTV session with my usual KTV kakis. Mark was in top form tonight and I made him end the session by doing a repeat of 《那些女孩教我的事》. We went home feeling happy.
Before the KTV session, we had dinner at Wheelock's Sun with Moon. MJ wasn't impressed with the food. I ordered some ebi and salmon gratin and the serving was really tiny.
I can hear my stomach signaling its hunger to me as I am typing. No, supper is bad. I should not eat anything at this hour of the day. The best solution is perhaps to head straight to my bed and depart for dreamland.
Btw, I couldn't believe it when Mark told us about his next career move. It seems like a misfit. MJ said Mark would probably stay for a year only. R was even less optimistic. He didn't think Mark could last for more than 6 months. Ha, what "good" friends we are!
Talking about work, today (oops, should be yesterday) was a bad day. I couldn't help but feel stupid at times. I wonder if I'm too simple-minded or others are too complicated. I guess I just have to learn things the hard way and in future try to be more alert and smart.
I can't help but want to ask that "million-dollar" question again:
WHAT DO I REALLY WANT???
Before the KTV session, we had dinner at Wheelock's Sun with Moon. MJ wasn't impressed with the food. I ordered some ebi and salmon gratin and the serving was really tiny.
Ebi & Salmon Gratin
Mango Roll
Waffle with Pumpkin Cream
I can hear my stomach signaling its hunger to me as I am typing. No, supper is bad. I should not eat anything at this hour of the day. The best solution is perhaps to head straight to my bed and depart for dreamland.
Btw, I couldn't believe it when Mark told us about his next career move. It seems like a misfit. MJ said Mark would probably stay for a year only. R was even less optimistic. He didn't think Mark could last for more than 6 months. Ha, what "good" friends we are!
Talking about work, today (oops, should be yesterday) was a bad day. I couldn't help but feel stupid at times. I wonder if I'm too simple-minded or others are too complicated. I guess I just have to learn things the hard way and in future try to be more alert and smart.
I can't help but want to ask that "million-dollar" question again:
WHAT DO I REALLY WANT???
Thursday, July 3, 2008
I Need More Time
I had a hard time deciding between going for a jog and nua-ing at home. Ha, in the end I gave in to temptation so here I am, blogging in front of the computer.
It's really strange. For the past 6 months when I had all the time in the world, I simply didn't feel like doing anything. Or perhaps I should say I didn't have any burning desire to do something. Most of the time, I was glued to the TV screen. Now that I have a lot less time at home, I suddenly realize that I have a lot of things to do. I really MISS my TV! Every night at 10 pm, I have to decide: 《女人我最大》or 《康熙來了》. It's a tough decision so most of the time I ended up switching channels. This is one thing that I have yet to come to terms with. Haha.
Unbelievably, I have a sudden desire to read the books that have been sleeping on my bookshelf for the longest time. I also crave for moments of solitude, where I can just be at ease with myself, perhaps sipping a cup of nice tea while indulging in my own world of fantasy...... I need more time. More time to adjust my pace, to get used to the harsh corporate world and definitely, more time to be myself.
I guess it's pay back time. Arghhh!
It's really strange. For the past 6 months when I had all the time in the world, I simply didn't feel like doing anything. Or perhaps I should say I didn't have any burning desire to do something. Most of the time, I was glued to the TV screen. Now that I have a lot less time at home, I suddenly realize that I have a lot of things to do. I really MISS my TV! Every night at 10 pm, I have to decide: 《女人我最大》or 《康熙來了》. It's a tough decision so most of the time I ended up switching channels. This is one thing that I have yet to come to terms with. Haha.
Unbelievably, I have a sudden desire to read the books that have been sleeping on my bookshelf for the longest time. I also crave for moments of solitude, where I can just be at ease with myself, perhaps sipping a cup of nice tea while indulging in my own world of fantasy...... I need more time. More time to adjust my pace, to get used to the harsh corporate world and definitely, more time to be myself.
I guess it's pay back time. Arghhh!
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